People think they know but do they?

5 or 6 years ago I started this blog because I wanted to share my thoughts to my friends. It was more of a leisure activity that I indulged in to record my teenage years. There were times when I crap on this blog, there were times when I wrote happy memories, there were times when I posted up poetries but nowadays after getting a camera, I blogged more about events that I have encountered.

Blogging is - or was as it may seem a leisure activity. Until my family found out. Then they decided to criticize whatever I post, gave me advice on, yada yada yada . And blogging didn't seem so fun anymore. And the same went to writing poetries and articles. It was more like whatever you do society judges you. You can't blog whatever you want. Everything you record down is read, or speculated. Which explains why I stopped writing much recently except for whenever I felt the urge to blog about event.

Shannonkeng.blogspot.com became another bimbo blog. There wasn't much you can gain from it. You can't gain anything intellectual. It became very materialistic. And of course you'd probably have that perception that I was "another one of those girls".

I don't like to be forced into doing something because someone expects me to do. Which was an irony because that was what I'm doing. I don't have the motivation to do so. I want to do it because I want to. That's how i get my creative juices flowing. I don't like to be demanded to do something. That's not the way I operate.

That's not the way I'm designed to be. Don't like it that's your problem. Don't like me that's your problem I'm sick of this hellhole that I'm stuck in.

Nothing seems fun anymore. Have I resumed another identity?