Train of thoughts.

I wasn't initially planning to update anything. However, since I was asked to, I decided to go ahead with it. I have always been wanting to update my blog, however, I lacked the time, and sometimes the motivation to go ahead with it.

At times I do miss blogging, however thanks to telecommunications made even easier like twitter, I decided to turn to that instead. Typing seems way easier. Plus you can just post whatever thoughts you want, in a split second, no wonder celebrities are turning to it.

Its been awhile since I really typed what I feel. And I'm beginning to think that I am undergoing another metamorphosis to a darker self-discovery. I find myself pretty singled out, trapped in these dark train of thoughts only going to places God knows where. And this somehow sort of portrays with the way I react to some people. I find it pleasurable to despise, to loathe and to hate easily.

I mean if you think about loving people is the hardest thing to do. Hating, thats something that is completely easy to do. And the funny thing is sometimes I have these thoughtful, rueful arguments with myself. Geez.

And its been getting like this all the time. I find that I don't fit in anywhere with anyone anymore. I mean yes I do crap with different kinds of friends, I enjoy making friends, but fitting in, I just feel like a burden to that person.

hmmmm I don't know how long this feeling will last. And I know its not the period causing all this malfunctioning in the mood swings. Like I said, its a train of thoughts that I'm having.